I tried to be perfect for too long before it struck me that I am not.
After much pain and frustration, I understand that left on my own, I fall short and miss the mark.
“…. apart from Him, I can do nothing” …. taken from John 15:5 in the Bible which says:
“I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.”
And, the one I turn to repeatedly on a daily basis:
“Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He shall direct your paths” …….. Proverbs 3:5-6
I now understand that God wants to grow me and not harm me. He wants me to have more love, joy, peace, longsuffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Who wouldn’t want more of those? (the longsuffering part involves having patience while enduring trials – we all face them at some point don’t we?)
This may sound like a bunch of “hocus pocus” or “mumbo jumbo” or some religious rant. Maybe it is. Just keep it in mind in case you hit a point like I did where everything I did on my own failed and I had nowhere else to turn. Tough place to be when you’ve been a high achiever your whole life. Through it all I’ve received a blessing I have always secretly craved – no, not financial prosperity and riches, something far better. Inner peace, comfort and true security. If this sounds far-fetched, that’s ok. It took me a while to get here and I’m still figuring a bunch of things out. I have great freedom and relief that I no longer have to secretly struggle with “not being good enough” or “not doing enough”. I know that I am accepted and loved by God. Why God chose me, I have no idea. I’m just grateful He did.
The best news is that the same is available for you. You can be led to receive the true desires of your heart, whatever that may be for you.
Thanks for your time in reading this,